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Silver Scholars 2001-11-06
I love the imaginary conversations I sometimes have going on in my head. I tend to come up with some of the funniest stuff that I can only hope someday I'll have the opportunity to say to someone. The only problem is, the scenarios I choose to set these conversations in are always highly improbable. Ah, but 10,000 monkeys and 10,000 typewriters, eh? I had so many of these things that one of them is certain to happen. I almost love this sort of thing as much as I enjoy it when the voices from my past all seem to say key phrases from memories in my head, they usually don't seem to have any sort of connection at first, so it takes me a while to figure out how those thoughts converged in that way. Or perhaps I've just told all of you way much more than you needed to know and now you're going to think I'm all crazy and such (hearing voices in my head and all). Well, if you think I am, then you aren't the only ones, I've doubted my sanity more times than most of you smile. I've learned however, that if I am nuts, most people don't really notice. Or if they do, they don't really seem to care. After all, everybody is at least a little fucked up. At least I'll admit I might be a bit off the deep end, to be cliched. Anyway, now my thoughts are all scattered again and it's time to go outside, have a cigarette, and collect them all in a butterfly net of reflection. Sorry. I couldn't help myself, I had to have some sort of screwed up imagry. a few minutes later --------------------------------- I've trod so many paths in this life That I wasn't sure if I'd ever Find my way here again Looking back I can see The progress I've made And the crippling injuries That I've conquered Those memories whose warmth could Melt the polar ice caps And the gross errors in judgement That could make me look Grotesque to anyone who can see Karmic debts But now standing here On this odd plateau Made from both experience And knowledge What I can see most clearly Are the things I knew when younger But that villainous cynicism has helped me forget When you combine it with a little Liquid lonliness It creates a amnestic drug That is almost impossible to resist Because it's very selective with what It makes you forget It only makes you forget Those virtues that make a true romantic The little things that a lover Appreciates And the knowledge that love Should build until it is more than A boiling sensation in your blood More than just the persistence Of your mind to focus on your love And much more than the simple Needs of the flesh It should wrap itself around you Like the glory of the creator And your need should be as great As mans eternal search for that entity And you flesh should burn With a fury that shames hell Not for the touch of your love But for the lack thereof And should continue as such Until the mere act of holding each others hand Would become as soothing As rain after weeks In the desert sun These are the things I had forgotten And have been often Too impatient To try to remember And I am ashamed of it ~MattMagus
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