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Farming Fallacious Pharimones(sp?) 2002-02-27
First off, I recieved this in my e-mail today (in my hotmail acct no less). It brightened up my whole f'n day. For most of the day I had thought that Jen had sent it to me, but she just confirmed a little while ago that it wasn't her. Now I'm totally confused, but still loving the fact that I recieved it (in fact it made me do a little silly happy dance earlier, just thinking about it). What confuses me is the "even if I don't show it all the time" part, especially since it didn't come from Jen. I might never find out who sent it to me (and probably lose a lot of sleep trying to figure it out), but I really am happy that someone cared enough to send it to me. It's little things like this that make Matt a very happy man. Wow. It just occured to me that I've never really had a real "secret admirer" before, at least if I had they never took the time or didn't have the guts to send me something like this. Now as you all know, (at least any of you who've been reading this page for more than a month) I'm all about loving people from afar. Being the object of once distant affection however, just confuses me. I look at myself in the mirror every day, and I've never seen an attractive quality in me at all, so there's that. And then there's the fact that I'm horribly shy, to the point that I become frozen the first time anyone makes a pass at me, and it makes me seem standofish. I'm not always this way of course, in fact I can think of a few instances in which I actually managed to be charming, but for the most part I just look goofy when trying. The point of all this is, if there is one really, that if this person were to keep up this "secret admirer" buisiness for just a little while it would definately get me hooked, but don't wait too long to reveal yourself, however you might be. The anticipation might be the end of me. I really could try guessing who it is, but I almost always guess wrong about this sort of thing. Anyway, I think that's quite enough of my rambling. Here's an attempt at some poetry: ------------------------------------------- You still can take my breath away ~Matt Magus |